So I went on a prayer walk with a friend, who is a mentor to me and it was a very powerful experience. I let go of an old belief and adopted a new, healthy belief. For those of you who know my story, you know that I live with Bipolar Disorder and I currently dont have custody of my 8 year old daughter because I had a manic episode when she was with me and i put her in potential danger. For those of you who dont know my story you can read some of it on the intro to Confessions for the narrow road.
My prayer walk was a very powerful experience. I picked some scriptures that have been encouraging to me in the last few years and I talked about their significance to me and then we prayed, thanking God and seeking greater understanding. We prayed over scriptures like Jeremiah 29:11 where it talks about the plans God has for me to give me a hope and a future. In out discussion I talked about my fears and old beliefs that I had concerning my daughter.
I developed a belief that I was not a safe place for my daughter because of what happened when I was manic. At the time I was not a safe place, but that was 5 years ago and now I've been on medication for 5 years and I haven't had any other manic or depressive episodes since then. So, even though I may not have been a safe place then, I am now. I am a safe place because God is my safe place. I am holding onto that belief and trusting God to continue to show me who I am and what good things I can believe about myself. I want to see myself the way God sees me, so that I can operate in His purpose for my life.
I just want to encourage you as you and I walking along this narrow road that just because you were one way in the past, doesnt mean you will be that way presently and in your future. Ask God to reveal Himself to you and to show you who you are. He made you. He knows you better than anyone. You can trust Him to show you the truth. If you want to know the scriptures I used, I can post them here.
May God bless you on this narrow road!
