As I write this post I am drinking my very last beer. I am choosing to say goodbye to drinking because I have finally decided that it's not serving me all that well. I drink to take the edge off of life. I admit that life is often overwhelming to me. I am a very sensitive person and that has it's good points and it's challenging ones. I've found that being sensitive opens me up to some vulnerabilities. I am also a very open person. I hate to feel like I'm hiding something from the people that I love. I also love this blog because it gives me the opportunity to share my heart in a way that can help others who are on their own journey to overcoming their struggles.
My last beer is finished and I feel like I'm being given a great resolve to do this and to succeed at it. As I mentioned I would drink to take the edge off. I am experiencing a difficult moment in my life. I don't live with my daughter; she lives with her dad and her grandpa and that is difficult for me. I, like my daughter, want to see her every day. I need to be with her, just as she needs to be with me. When I spend time with her and her dad, I often have the desire to drink because it's hard, but I realize that if I continue to do that I'm teaching my daughter that when things are difficult I must drink. I don't want her to learn that from me. She is my inspiration to living a better life, because I want to teach her many things and the best way to do that is to be the example for her. So, today I'm saying goodbye to drinking and it feels good and empowering.
